Dream-state

I find myself in the same place as before the trip
Full of doubt and teeming to the brim with uncertainty
What I seek, I do not know
I know though, I have no choice but to try

Maybe, I want to not be human for a moment
Maybe, this will make my existence unique
Perhaps, I want to escape
Perhaps, I will feel free

Maybe, it is meaning that I seek
A glimmer of insight just beyond the limitations of my biology
Am I just biology?
My perspective brought to its knees by biology, more constrained than mine
What does it all mean?

One thing is for sure
Reality is nowhere but in-between my ears
A reality built on neurochemistry
A life of a million micro experiences
Maybe, too easily tampered with
Perhaps, lucky enough to have the choice

A trip where reality itself is unreal
Where hummingbirds stupefy
Where clouds test the laws of physics
Connections crossed
Converging emotions
Where friends feel eternal
Where peacefulness is unstoppable
Coinciding thoughts
Conflicting desires
Where inhibitions are no where to be found
Where you can be yourself
Where you can be one
Chapters are the new time scale
Who am I? Does it matter?
Perhaps, a trip will guide me
Maybe, guide me to the ultimate destination

Some time has passed
Did it matter?
Does my biology let me remember?
Is some force responsible for controlling those moments? Never to be remembered
Perhaps, we weren't made to feel like that forever
Maybe, once is enough
What are the highs without the lows
Baselines, an infinite regress
What was I even seeking?

Perhaps, the brain can stretch even further
Maybe, I am asking the wrong question
Perhaps, my biology is responsible
Responsible for the void

I rest easy in knowing
Knowing I am not alone
Maybe, what I seek is closer to home
Perhaps, everyone else is searching
How many more trips must I take
Is this base reality?
The trip is over
But the search continues
Maybe, with a new lens
Perhaps, closer to home